Hey loves! I hope everyone is having a wonderful week so far, I know I am- hence the photo above. Lately, I’ve been in my head a lot but not in a negative fashion. No, one of love and security. I’ve reentered a relationship that I questioned for a little while. You know, one of those “I’m not going to go back” but in the corner of your mind there’s a whisper saying,”don’t let go”? That tugging in your chest and adrenaline in your veins that confirm your decision to continue to love and repeatedly fall in love with someone, that’s where I am. When we decided to work on our relationship, sure there were many naysayers but I would only be shocked if there weren’t.
My ideal couple- yeah, I said it. I love these two. The passion, compromise, strengths, weaknesses.. The faults and mistakes, the skeletons hidden to everyone else but he knows it all just as I do. No boundaries of transparency or conditions to love. Only the openness and willingness to constantly put the other person’s feeling into consideration regardless of the sacrifice (and I do mean that in the most positive way possible). He’s my Mr. Big, but I didn’t realize this until here recently. No, there’s not a romantic story behind it per say, it’s just the story that is Us- the turmoil, the arguments, the disappointments, the irritations, but also the love, compassion, joy, overwhelming peace, and wholeness. He knows me like the back of his hand and I know him just the same. It amazes me what you’ll learn when time and growth are key ingredients in a relationship.
Am I saying we’re going to get married tomorrow? No. And I don’t consider him Mr. Big because he has a phobia of commitment but I am saying that I wouldn’t trade any of the down times because I’m exactly where I want to be. He is humble, kind, goofy, sexy, intelligent, loving, caring, protective, encouraging, and tons of other things but I don’t want this to be a novel. I remember I used to relish in the logic (or lack there of) watching Sex & the City, but I would have never guessed that I would be placed in a similar situation. I’m saying all of this to say this, relationships are not perfect but if two imperfectly perfect people love one another enough to stay together- anything is possible. Who knows what else is in store for us?
I know I don’t usually indulge into my personal life, but I just felt like sharing my thoughts with you all. I hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed sharing it. You can find me everywhere on social media, follow me @LeahLaRae__ on Instagram and LeahLaRae on Snapchat so I can connect with everyone.
Talk to you later,
Leah La’Rae 😘
Dedicated to my Mr. Big ❤️